Spring: April and May

Music: "Spring" by Vivaldi

Greetings friends. So I know I've been in New York City for awhile, but I thought it would never be too late to start a blog about my life here.

In case you don't know me. My name is Jonathan. I'm from Texas. For the last 7 years of my life I lived in San Marcos where I felt I knew everyone--a great place to meet great people. Unfortunately there isn't anything to do there.

I finished my MFA at Texas State and fled to this Northern state in the month of April (before I actually graduated, but I finished everything and took off).

I expected instant success, friends, love, etc. Instead, I'm having an intense training in loneliness in the loneliest of all cities. However, some days are great. I will not give up, we shall see if I make it.

You might be wondering what the pictures are? The first is a watercolor or color chalk picture of Central Park in spring. The trees are amazing here, the few they have. The next picture is a view out of the window of the Long Island City apartment that I'm in. The last picture is where I work.

What can I say of New York City in spring? The color is assuredly pink. Cherry blossoms. We found water on Mars and the Earthquake near Chengdu China had the whole city ordering Szechwan Chicken at the innumerable Chinese restaurants. Many signs in numerous shops had "recession specials" which weren't very cheap. Obama graffiti.

People here don't smile. They are impatient. Busy. Unfortunately, this transformation is happening to me. I was never an asshole before, but I'm in my fledgling stages now. And my eyebrows are turning white.

This month and the summer months were among the hardest days in my life. I went from having nearly everything one wanted in life to starting from the very beginning. No possessions, no connections, no job, no money.

I'm insatiably curious as to how I make it through this. I will make it through this.